|
[Jan. 3rd, 2009|12:12 pm] |
fri 010209 10:13pm
Holden Crotchfield calls me SIDDISTRACTED. I prefered Siddelicious by Fresnoza or Siddementia, but I am neither one on most days.
This was meant to be a New Year post. I wanted to make lists of fragmented incidents, new lovers and constants, allegories of places, chase-flight sequences and ideas that could merit a reasonable amount of approval from my snooty friends. I wanted to make lists, because I've resolved to be a LIST person this year.
Oh well, lame one-liner it is: 2008 was unbelievable!
I spread myself too thin on the thick, hard toast of ... LIFE haha! I try very hard to center myself, take things one at a time and it is IMPOSSIBLE! No lists, just terse and corny answers!
I have a lot going on right now. Maya said, "Busy is an understatement!" But as I keep reassuring myself, "Busy, yeah. But VERY FLEXIBLE. Hit me up when you're going through liquor withdrawal."
Like most jobs, mine is 24/7. I have to be at everyone's beck and call, meaning sleeping over the gallery (which is on the other end of my commuting perimeter) or staying over that godforsaken sleepy industrial area till 2 fucking am is the most preferable option. Also, I deal work with divas (think miniscule wealthy percentage of Philippine socio-economic strata, think minuscule freelancing/freeloading percentage of Southeast Asian creative crust) and unhappy co-workers.
Regular work days are Tuesdays to Sundays. But between late November to December 2008 prior to the holidays, I only had one day off. Ta-daaaa!
I do not complain! I've always worked in high pressure conditions! Working in Manila Contemporary is my right kind of crazy. I just wish that I'm doing the job designated to me: the pretentious art nitpicking, the intoxicated proposal meetings, the pseudo-intellectual research ... that sort of thing. The glamorously-packaged (because after hours it's laborious and incrimintaing like every other occupation) tasks of the resident curator! BOW! All I feel at the end of the day is inadequacy (as much as everyone tells me to take a fucking break please!) because I can't do my job well when I'm thinking about more pressing technical, administrative things like contacting the printer, polishing the itinerary for delivery and pick up of works, applying for wifi. COME ON!
I am going to make this new gallery pretty! and I will continue working for ANARCHISM. "Not the bomb-in-the-pocket stuff, which is terrorism, whatever name it tries to dignify itself with; not the social-Darwinist economic "libertarianism" of the far right; but anarchism. as prefigured in early Taoist thought, and expounded by Shelley and Kropotkin, Goldman and Goodman. Anarchism's principal target is the authoritarian State (capitalist or socialist); its principal moral-practical theme is cooperation (solidarity, mutual aid)." - Leguin
So yes, now that I've explained myself I'M SORRY! -- For projects gone on hold, for essays that stink, for books that pile up, for stale music and for expired interpersonal relations!
(For the sake of lists, I will give one.
List of browsers/ windows open after lunch to 5:30pm:
1. GMAIL job account COMPOSE MAIL
2. GMAIL job account MESSAGE
3. GMAIL personal account INBOX
4. Google results: Bayan ni Anding -- do you mean Bayan ni Nanding?
5. Wong Lip Chin online portfolio
6. Don Salubayba online portfolio
7. Facebook Manila Contemporary grand opening album with:
8. Facebook chat with Wawi
9. Facebook chat with Alwin
10. Facebook profile Alwin Reamillo
11. DestinAsia
12. YM Maya
13. YM Lea
14. YM Fatima
15. YM Cos
16. YM Zoe
17. Text editor: notes on AMORSOLO show
18. Word: Abysmal
19. Word: pr for AMORSOLO show
20: Word: photo comments and freestyle email stories for IN SEARCH...)
I should have taken a screenshot. I have never operated on so many of these... things at the same time. Maybe shifting through at 10sec intervals. But all of them, ALIVE! BUZZING!
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
grammargh's journal
